I need a confidant/pen pal. Felicity talks to her Sally. 0 = ) Someone already volunteered her services. It's just been a long time since we last spoke.

I gotta rent the next seasons of Felicity. For now I have nothing to hide behind.

Two Lessons I Learned at Mass Yesterday
1. You must accept the way God made you.
2. Prayer is oxygen for the soul (so you gotta keep breathing!)

I have an SFC GA later. I'm looking forward to it. I just have to perfect my outfit. 0 = )

Labels: what now

Samba (the music of my early childhood) is so uplifting. :)

Dad bought Special K* and Oatmeal Crisp. Yay! :D

I had Special K* and Rainier cherries for breakfast.

As I was eating my next door neighbour made a noise showing me what I'll sound like in about 20/30 years. XD At least I can still laugh.

It's gorgeous out. I was supposed to go shopping for baking supplies with Ate Mar today. We had to reschedule our baking day though. My ultimate team has a game tonight.

Everything seems better when I have a good meal. I now know exactly what to say to a wonderful guy who just got in touch with me.

Today can be a good day.

Labels: good day, good morning, num num

Find out where I can take first aid

Iron

Laundry (ie. hide my laundry from my parents so I can do it myself)

Clean (My room, the bathroom, everywhere)

Putting the dishes away

You see I need to be given very exact instructions on what to do otherwise I become very paralyzingly anxious. I know I'm supposed to do more around the house though I am unsure as to exactly what. Right now I feel as if I have to clean my whole house. I find that quite a daunting task. I may be updating this page with what I remember or learn.

I'm in that paranoid sleep-deprived state where I'll become very anxious and go nuts from lack of an exact task that needs to be accomplished. I may find out about something that I need to do, but it may not be enough. What I do might never be enough. I must do clean my house, find another job to supplement my current income, and finish driving lessons. That all seems too much (That's the depressed little me talking). Anyway, hope I can just be brave and get through this day.

I've been told I need to get out more so I'll be less sad and have a break from negativity.

When I'm doing well emotionally everything seems better. I'm a very emotional ("sensitive" - I answered yes to all ten of these questions: http://kandeethemakeupartist.blogspot.com/2010/07/10-questions-to-see-if-you-are-highly.html) person.

Labels: good morning

I live in fear. That's how I've been taught to live.

I just realized that my current (part-time) job brings me closer to God. I get very anxious having to call my department and doing my job as perfectly as I can. I have to pray a lot to get me through those situations. My job requires me to be compassionate and sensitive to the needs of my customers and to work with a team. It may be considered menial by some, but it is what I need right now. Aside from helping me pay bills and rent my job makes me rely on God when I so easily forget to acknowledge His presence. The skills and character I can build through my current job are valuable. As I search for another job to compliment my work week I must rely on and follow God more. Somehow everything's better when I just put God first.

Labels: could use a hug, i'll be ok, miserable

I've taken it upon myself to update the family website. Unfortunately I've forgotten exactly where I put the layout template and pages for the site before it switched servers. @_@ I remember I even got the family to join some fanlistings. Grawr.

Edit: I found the old URL for the family site. Alas, it has not been archived in The Internet Archive: Wayback Machine. Since that old server shut down completely, I might have to restore everything from our older server (Geocities) by copying what was archived by The Internet Archive: Wayback Machine.

Labels: frustrated, o well

I miss Fana.