Hmm...

I wonder whether being in Heaven is somewhat similar to being in a reality TV jury house.  You'd see people come in and think, "Nooo!  How can this be?  You're [dead]?"  kkkkkk.  Then again you would be indescribably content with the Beatific Vision.  SZ

More Wisdom from Fr. John Meehan, SJ :)

Pray about your relationships.

You can do the examens prayer to gauge your relationships.  There are healthy relationships and unhealthy relationships.

You put God first - at the centre of your life.  Christ is at the centre of our relationships.

We bring others closer to Christ.

Today's Reading and Gospel:

http://usccb.org/bible/readings/111813.cfm

Moral of the stories: Be yourself; who you are.  SZ

At the end of the Gospel the crowd who was trying to shut the blind man up praised God.  0 = )

Possible Ignatian reflection on today's Gospel: Where are you in the Gospel?  Are you the blind man yelling for Jesus and being shushed by the crowd or are you the crowd?

Positive Thoughts

From Fr. John Meehan, SJ:

• Each person we encounter is a mystery for whom we should have reverence.
• God delights in everyone.
• We were all created good.
• We must see others the way God sees them.
• Love your neighbour as yourself.
• Stop negative thoughts in their tracks.
• God loves everyone, even the toxic people (We have to love them too.  Just be careful).

Querida Família no Brasil, muito obrigada pelas orações SZ

Minha melhor amiga é minha mãe!  @_@

Jesuit Talk from Fr. John Meehan, SJ :)

If you find yourself judging people check on them.  Ask them "Where is God in your life?"  That will help us have more compassion; see where they're at.

In the Our Father we pray for our daily bread.  We can focus on the present.  God only provided as much manna as His people needed in the desert.  God only gives us what we can handle.

Our vocation is who we are.  It was given to us when we were in our mother's womb.  0 = )

"Antes que no seio fosses formado, eu já te conhecia" - Jeremias 1:5

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you" - Jeremiah 1:5 

Be patient in your discernment.

Feelings/attractions don't go away when you have a religious calling/made a vow.  What matters is what you do with those feelings.

Pray the examens at least once a day - e.g. in the middle of the day, before you sleep...  Where was God in my day (consolations - things to be thankful for)?  Where did I not feel God in this day (desolations)?  St. Ignatius said the examens is an essential prayer.

Bring everything to prayer.  That way we will stay close to God.  If we stay close to God we can't go wrong in our discernment. God doesn't play tricks on us.

'Cause this boy is a hero :)

http://lifeteen.com/gay-catholic-and-doing-fine/

good dreams :)

Quite a Successful Day :)

1. Driving lesson
2. Work
3. Cooking a delicious beef stroganoff (Recipe was in February/March 2012 issue of Fine Cooking magazine)
4. Chocolate cookies for dessert 
5. Used a manual blender to mush up fresh cucumber into a masque (combined with honey) for my face (Dad's recipe courtesy of Angela)
6. I (kinda) fixed my chipped nail (Nail lacquer manicure from She to Shic) 0 = )

A Good Reminder

The beginning of this echoes how I see the world.

http://conciliaria.com/2012/05/on-improving-catholic-jewish-relations/

«It is therefore of extreme importance that the sinfulness of thoughts of suspicion and hatred and particularly the sinfulness of any contemptuous utterance, however flippantly it is meant, is made clear to all mankind. This applies in particular to such thoughts and utterances about individuals or groups of other religions, races and nations. Speech has power and few men realize that words do not fade. What starts out as a sound ends in a deed.»

«As St. Thomas said over 600 years ago, no man or group of men can be hindered in worshipping God in the way in which they consciously, freely and in virtue of the light of their conscience choose to worship Him, provided that it is obvious this method of worshipping God is not anti-human or anti-social.»

«Genuine love implies that Jews be accepted as Jews . . . [A]cknowledge the integrity and permanent preciousness of Jews and Judaism.»

«The prophets insist that justice must be the supreme and active concern of every man. It was not to the judges but to every member of the people that the words of the Lord are directed: “Seek justice, correct oppression, defend the fatherless, plead for the widow.”»

«There is an evil which most of us condone and are even guilty of: indifference to evil. We remain neutral, impartial, and not easily moved by the wrongs done unto other people. Indifference to evil is more insidious than evil itself; it is more universal, more contagious, more dangerous.»

Is this why some people watch the news?  Some people I have criticized do what they can.

Are sensitive people prophets?

I've already written on all the pages of my journal. To be eco-friendly, let's avoid using paper. ^^;;

I need a confidant/pen pal. Felicity talks to her Sally. 0 = ) Someone already volunteered her services. It's just been a long time since we last spoke.

I gotta rent the next seasons of Felicity. For now I have nothing to hide behind.

Two Lessons I Learned at Mass Yesterday
1. You must accept the way God made you.
2. Prayer is oxygen for the soul (so you gotta keep breathing!)

I have an SFC GA later. I'm looking forward to it. I just have to perfect my outfit. 0 = )

Samba Always Cheers Me Up

Samba (the music of my early childhood) is so uplifting. :)

Yay!

Dad bought Special K* and Oatmeal Crisp. Yay! :D

I had Special K* and Rainier cherries for breakfast.

As I was eating my next door neighbour made a noise showing me what I'll sound like in about 20/30 years. XD At least I can still laugh.

It's gorgeous out. I was supposed to go shopping for baking supplies with Ate Mar today. We had to reschedule our baking day though. My ultimate team has a game tonight.

Everything seems better when I have a good meal. I now know exactly what to say to a wonderful guy who just got in touch with me.

Today can be a good day.

To Do

Find out where I can take first aid

Iron

Laundry (ie. hide my laundry from my parents so I can do it myself)

Clean (My room, the bathroom, everywhere)

Putting the dishes away

You see I need to be given very exact instructions on what to do otherwise I become very paralyzingly anxious. I know I'm supposed to do more around the house though I am unsure as to exactly what. Right now I feel as if I have to clean my whole house. I find that quite a daunting task. I may be updating this page with what I remember or learn.

I'm in that paranoid sleep-deprived state where I'll become very anxious and go nuts from lack of an exact task that needs to be accomplished. I may find out about something that I need to do, but it may not be enough. What I do might never be enough. I must clean my house, find another job to supplement my current income, and finish driving lessons. That all seems too much (That's the depressed little me talking). Anyway, hope I can just be brave and get through this day.

I've been told I need to get out more so I'll be less sad and have a break from negativity.

When I'm doing well emotionally everything seems better. I'm a very emotional ("sensitive" - I answered yes to all ten of these questions: http://kandeethemakeupartist.blogspot.com/2010/07/10-questions-to-see-if-you-are-highly.html) person.

I live in fear. That's how I've been taught to live.

My Current Job as my Mission (Being Brought Back to God)

I just realized that my current (part-time) job brings me closer to God. I get very anxious having to call my department and doing my job as perfectly as I can. I have to pray a lot to get me through those situations. My job requires me to be compassionate and sensitive to the needs of my customers and to work with a team. It may be considered menial by some, but it is what I need right now. Aside from helping me pay bills and rent my job makes me rely on God when I so easily forget to acknowledge His presence. The skills and character I can build through my current job are valuable. As I search for another job to compliment my work week I must rely on and follow God more. Somehow everything's better when I just put God first.

Back to Web Design

I've taken it upon myself to update the family website. Unfortunately I've forgotten exactly where I put the layout template and pages for the site before it switched servers. @_@ I remember I even got the family to join some fanlistings. Grawr.

Edit: I found the old URL for the family site. Alas, it has not been archived in The Internet Archive: Wayback Machine. Since that old server shut down completely, I might have to restore everything from our older server (Geocities) by copying what was archived by The Internet Archive: Wayback Machine.

:)

Upon Seeing a Cross Country Runner from Eritrea on TV

I miss Fana.

Paralympic Memory

On my last shift Brad dug up the rod that we stuck in the snow. He became our enthusiastic tour guide.